Cameron's time home + SJ's Birth Story

I've written this out about 4 times, but nothing that I wrote seemed like enough. It was just facts, no emotion. How do you explain the sweetest most amazing moments in life through writing? Hopefully this rendition will do just that. 

My C-section was scheduled for August, 26th and Cameron was scheduled to be home on the 23rd. I anxiously awaited for the moment I got to have my husband back in my arms. I cleaned the house, from top to bottom and got everything ready for the arrival of both of my boys. 

August 22nd I got a call from Cameron, and it went something like this:
C: 11:22
P: okay... 
C: you have no idea what I'm talking about do you?
P: No,should I?
C: You should probably be at SLC Int. at 11:22 because I got an earlier flight

And right then I lost it, I about collapsed on the floor crying. We hung up and I started getting ready. That night my mom and I got to the airport about half hour early, sign in hand and I anxiously waited for him to come down the stairs. The moment I saw him, he collapsed at the top of the staircase and we both broke down in tears of pure joy. I've never felt more in love than at that moment (or so I thought) 

The next couple of days were a blur, we ate at our favorite places and relaxed just soaking up the few days left we had just the two of us. 

Friday morning we woke up at 4am to get ready to meet our little boy. 

We got to the hospital at 5:30 to start getting the show on the road for the 7:30 scheduled surgery time. After getting into the hospital gown, labs drawn, an IV in and Cameron got into his "outfit" we were ready. Around 7 our nurse came in and let us know that our surgery had been pushed due to an emergency C-Section and we would be going back around 9-9:30 instead.. GREEATTT I had been completely psyched out and finally pushed all my fears aside but once we were told we would be delayed... I was 10x more terrified. I went through every C-Section birth story I could find in the blogosphere trying to get myself calmed down and so I knew EXACTLY what to expect. Turns out that just scared me more than before. 

Around 9 the anesthesiologist came in and introduced herself and told me about how the spinal block was going to work. Honestly that was the ONLY thing I was afraid of, a needle to the back? No thank you. However, they wheeled me back into the OR.. I've never seen an OR before and I was a little disappointed it wasn't anything like you see on Grey's. They put the drape over my stomach so I couldn't see anything and then the anesthesiologist told me to roll over, at that moment I started shaking and crying uncontrollably. She was nice enough to give me some medication through my IV to calm my anxiety and Cameron rolled up a stool and told me to look at him, only him and to breathe with his breaths. The local anesthetic was given first and the next thing I knew, I couldn't feel the lower half of my body and it was go time.

Cameron wasn't sure he wanted too watch the surgery, but as soon as he saw the first cut he was hooked and snapping pictures of the entire thing. At 9:57am our little man entered the world and was screaming his little heart out. Hearing his cries for the first time was the most beautiful sound I've ever heard. They took him over and cleaned him up, Cameron cut the umbilical cord, and they wrapped him up and brought him to me. I've never felt so in love with Cameron (this time for real) seeing his tears and complete happiness when we met our little boy was the most emotional and fantastic feeling in the entire world. Within 15 minutes we were out of the operating room and in our recovery room with SJ. We must have just stared at him for hours, and even now, 3 weeks later I find myself staring at him. He is the most fantastic and amazing gift we could have ever asked for and although Cameron is gone he still skypes with SJ regularly and I blow up his phone with pictures all day long. I can't wait until our family is whole again. 


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