Baby P Makes 3

Monday, October 17, 2016

One Month (7 weeks)

Wowza! It's been a crazy hectic 7 weeks but I couldn't ask for anything better. My dad left last Tuesday after being here since day 10 of SJ's life and so I've slowly had to figure out how to run this mom life on my own. I've had breakdowns, I've had moments of insanity, my house isn't as spotless as I would like.. however when I get a smile from my sweet boy all of the tears and thoughts of "I have no freaking clue what I'm doing" disappear and I just melt into a puddle and it's all worth it.

I won't bore you with details of everything has gone on in the past 7 weeks (it hasn't been too exciting) but I will condense his little life into this post, and I'll be better at posting more often now that we have a semi-routine so I won't have to play catch up.

Sleep:
SJ loves to snuggle, and he is so great at it. Although sometimes his need to love on momma makes it pretty difficult to make food for myself, let alone sweep and swiffer the floors (; I am pretty sure he is the worlds worst napper.. he doesn't sleep for more than an hour at a time and that's pushing it and it only happens about 2-3 times a day but he makes up for it at night. Little man sleeps like a champ from about 9:30-2am when we change his diaper and eat. Sometimes he gets up around 5-6am to eat and then he goes back down until about 8:30am so if we have to choose to sleep at night or take naps during the day- I'm gonna go with sleep at night.

Development:

SJ has some CRAZY insane neck and leg muscles already and can sit and stand up with plenty of assistance and I'm pretty sure would crawl if he had the whole "move arms and legs at same time" knowledge. Everyday he amazes me more and more with his readiness to move. He LOVES his baby gym, he will sit under the mirror and animals and play for HOURS if I let him (:

Eat:

He is gaining weight like a champ (I swear all he does is eat) and is wearing 0-3 clothes although some of them are still a little large. Breastfeeding is still a challenge but we are down to only supplementing about 6 oz (2oz after a feeding when I'm lacking on production) a day with formula so it's getting better everyday. I doubt he will ever be only breastfed but I'm a firm believer in fed is best- whether it's exclusively breastfeeding/formula/or supplementing when needed.

Bath time:

SJ LOVES bath time and with the Bloomin' bath it makes sink baths so much easier (and puts my mind at ease that he's comfy and safe) honestly if he's having a meltdown and nothing will calm him down... my go to remedy to relax him is a bath. Plus he always smells SOO good after!

My sweet little bear, oh how you're growing so fast right before my eyes. You are doing so many amazing things already I can't wait to see all that you accomplish in your many years to come. Having your smiles and love fills a void that I never even knew existed. For 9 months it was just me and you, and I was so nervous to share you with the world. Now that you're here with me all I want to do is show you off and let others fall in love with you as much as I have. I know your daddy wishes he could be apart of these first few months but he is where he needs to be and will be home with us so so soon and our little family will be whole once again. For now, daily skype dates and songs will have to do. I always knew that I wanted to be a mom more than anything in the world, but I never knew what complete joy and happiness it would bring me. Thank you baby boy for your unconditional love and for choosing me to be your momma.

Until next time,

Saturday, September 17, 2016

Cameron's time home + SJ's Birth Story

I've written this out about 4 times, but nothing that I wrote seemed like enough. It was just facts, no emotion. How do you explain the sweetest most amazing moments in life through writing? Hopefully this rendition will do just that.

My C-section was scheduled for August, 26th and Cameron was scheduled to be home on the 23rd. I anxiously awaited for the moment I got to have my husband back in my arms. I cleaned the house, from top to bottom and got everything ready for the arrival of both of my boys.

August 22nd I got a call from Cameron, and it went something like this:
C: 11:22
P: okay...
C: you have no idea what I'm talking about do you?
P: No,should I?
C: You should probably be at SLC Int. at 11:22 because I got an earlier flight

And right then I lost it, I about collapsed on the floor crying. We hung up and I started getting ready. That night my mom and I got to the airport about half hour early, sign in hand and I anxiously waited for him to come down the stairs. The moment I saw him, he collapsed at the top of the staircase and we both broke down in tears of pure joy. I've never felt more in love than at that moment (or so I thought)

The next couple of days were a blur, we ate at our favorite places and relaxed just soaking up the few days left we had just the two of us.

Friday morning we woke up at 4am to get ready to meet our little boy.

We got to the hospital at 5:30 to start getting the show on the road for the 7:30 scheduled surgery time. After getting into the hospital gown, labs drawn, an IV in and Cameron got into his "outfit" we were ready. Around 7 our nurse came in and let us know that our surgery had been pushed due to an emergency C-Section and we would be going back around 9-9:30 instead.. GREEATTT I had been completely psyched out and finally pushed all my fears aside but once we were told we would be delayed... I was 10x more terrified. I went through every C-Section birth story I could find in the blogosphere trying to get myself calmed down and so I knew EXACTLY what to expect. Turns out that just scared me more than before.

Around 9 the anesthesiologist came in and introduced herself and told me about how the spinal block was going to work. Honestly that was the ONLY thing I was afraid of, a needle to the back? No thank you. However, they wheeled me back into the OR.. I've never seen an OR before and I was a little disappointed it wasn't anything like you see on Grey's. They put the drape over my stomach so I couldn't see anything and then the anesthesiologist told me to roll over, at that moment I started shaking and crying uncontrollably. She was nice enough to give me some medication through my IV to calm my anxiety and Cameron rolled up a stool and told me to look at him, only him and to breathe with his breaths. The local anesthetic was given first and the next thing I knew, I couldn't feel the lower half of my body and it was go time.

Cameron wasn't sure he wanted too watch the surgery, but as soon as he saw the first cut he was hooked and snapping pictures of the entire thing. At 9:57am our little man entered the world and was screaming his little heart out. Hearing his cries for the first time was the most beautiful sound I've ever heard. They took him over and cleaned him up, Cameron cut the umbilical cord, and they wrapped him up and brought him to me. I've never felt so in love with Cameron (this time for real) seeing his tears and complete happiness when we met our little boy was the most emotional and fantastic feeling in the entire world. Within 15 minutes we were out of the operating room and in our recovery room with SJ. We must have just stared at him for hours, and even now, 3 weeks later I find myself staring at him. He is the most fantastic and amazing gift we could have ever asked for and although Cameron is gone he still skypes with SJ regularly and I blow up his phone with pictures all day long. I can't wait until our family is whole again.

GRAPHIC IMAGES BELOW: If you're squeamish, definitely end your reading here.