Baby P Makes 3: One month on my own

First off, I just want to thank you all for the positive feedback and insane amount of support I have gotten from everyone on this blog adventure. I mean seriously, people I haven't spoken to in YEARS wrote me messages of support and kindness. I can't even begin to tell you how much that means. I started this blog thinking I'd get 10 maybe 20 views over the entire time I was doing this. I looked this morning and more than 200 people have gotten on to read it. WHAT! 200 people? I don't even think I know 200 people! I'm still in such shock and full of gratitude to all of you who have shown support for me and Cameron during this journey. Whether it be reading this, reaching out, or sharing the blog, you have not gone unnoticed or unappreciated. So to everyone who is now following me THANK YOU! You make my heart feel so full!

Now for the post of the day.

Yesterday I said "see you soon" to Cameron, AGAIN. I swear that man is gone for training more then he is home these days. Lucky for me, this is the last time he will be gone until the deployment. Not so lucky for me, he is working a 12am-12pm shift so our communication time has been cut DRASTICALLY from what we are accustomed to. I guess it's a good trial run for how it will be while he is gone (time difference over there and all.)

This time he is gone, he will be missing out on Halloween (THE BEST HOLIDAY EVER) and my birthday. We've never been apart for any holiday or special event so this is all new to us. Mostly, I think he's most upset that he wont be able to decorate the house for Halloween, because honestly we have some AWESOME decorations.

I constantly ask myself the question "So Payge, (yes I talk to myself in the 3rd person) is there anything GOOD that comes out of him being gone?" Why yes, yes there is. ICE CREAM FOR BREAKFAST. I mean don't get me wrong there are other good things, like having the whole bed to myself (well myself and the dogs) or being able to dance around my house with my music blasting and not worrying about disturbing him, and nap time on Sunday without interruption, but overall the ice cream takes the top spot.

Seriously though, having him gone is never easy and for some reason this time was even harder. I NEVER cry when he leaves. Usually, it's early in the morning and I just get up for about 45 seconds and give him a hug, a kiss, and send him on his way. This time however, he woke me up and I just SOBBED. What the hell emotion? Go back where you came from and leave me alone. I honestly couldn't give you a reason I was an emotional volcano, but for some reason I just couldn't help it. So I had all these grand plans to clean and organize my house and make it sparkle... but that did not happen. I napped and watched Disney movies instead... Oops, but seriously guys, have you SEEN UP? It's adorable and nearly IMPOSSIBLE to work through. So I didn't, and then Hocus Pocus was on and you DO NOT work through that, you just can't (regardless of how many times you've seen it... this month) there's just something about Bette Midler, SJP, and Kathy Najimy that "Put a spell on you" to where you are useless the entire time the movie is on, or is that just me?

Well, that's all for this Monday Morning. I hope all of you has a spooktacular weekend!